A Letter To 'D'

This is my fav blog from my previous friendster blog page...
Dun hav mood to update...so, enjoy this one instead...
N yahhh... I really meant every word in here~

Dear 'D',
I miz u....Dun u think itz a lil' messed up to leave me like that?? I tried to hate u but itz useless...Why did u even had me in the 1st place if u knew that u're gonna leave me?? Now u're happy wit everyone ard u..but u left me out :( My mom luvs u, T.Boo luvs u but still u dun giv a f**k.... ~heavy sign~

I alwayz wanted to b ur lil' gal...but u never let me... I alwayz tell ppl that I dun care abt u or abt the fact that u left me, but in mah poor heart...there's bruises everywhere... How could u, 'D' ????

I alwayz say sh*t like I hate u n blah blah blah...but I no I luv u like hell, 'D'...U think ur gals luv u more than I do?? Then u're wrong... Even though I act like I'm tough, I'm alwayz cryin' in mah heart coz of u...

Sumtimes I juz wanna run to u n hug u n tell u how much u mean to me...but I can't... Life's not fair :( I alwayz envy those gals who r in good relationships wit their 'D's.... Coz I can't hav wut they hav... :(

Well, 'D'...I can't do anything abt it...rite??

If I could hav one wish in mah life, I would wish for u,me,mom, and t.boo to b together spendin' time, talkin' n crackin' jokes juz for ONE DAY....coz I no I can't b too greedy, rite?? Coz I'm sharin' u wit other gals, too :(

But m not jealous... I juz wish u'd care abt me like u care abt them... Newayz, bottom line iz.... no matter wut u did to screw up mah mind or mah life, I still luv u wit all mah heart...all the way...till I die... The reason iz juz too simple,'D'.....

"coz u're mah DAD n m ur DAUGHTER...."

LUV, J.

Life is one damned thing after anotha~

Lately, i'v been sad, feelin' so so isolated and dun wanna communicate...
One minute i'm content.... The next, i feel like shit...
I feel so lonely even while ppl r ard me.. My dayz r limited, i no..
Hav i done enuff to leave..?? Or if i start doin' good deeds, will i be able to leave in peace..?? Do i still hav time..??
Loads of question marks in my head, which i really hate...
Will i be able to recover...?? Will i hav all th answers in the end..?
will i live happily eva after...?? Will i be able to leave in peace..??
Will i go up.?? Or will i go down..??
Newayz... i miss sumone loads n i dunno who...
The worst thing in life is not havin' answers to ur own questions~
Aite, i no m crazy... Betta take those pills again...
Nite nite...

La La La Love~

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble.
That's what you get for all your trouble.
I'll never fall in love again.

What do you get when you kiss a guy?
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia.
After you do, he'll never phone you.
I'll never fall in love again.

Don't tell me what is all about.
'Cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out.
Out of those chains, those chains that bind you.
That is why I'm here to remind you.

What do you get when you fall in love?
You get enough tears to fill an ocean
That's what you get for your devotion.
I'll never fall in love again.

What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow.
So, for at least until tomorrow.
I'll never fall in love again!

All u need is LOVE

There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how
to play the game. It's easy.
Nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how
to be you in time. It's easy.

All you need is love. All you need is love.
Love is all you need.

Nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.

All you need is love. All you need is love.
Love is all you need