I wonder.....

Would life be perfect when thur's LOVE is all around...??

Or...

When thur's no LOVE at all..??

In my own opinion.... I chose the latter... coz... LOVE HURTS!

Agree..??

words.... betta left unsaid... r... more precious n meaningful than words that come out of ur mouth..

i guess thatz true...
i neva complain nor talk abt my feelings to others...
i thot itz better than bragging abt my life...
people think im so happy n im a nga paw...
wut they dunno is... a lonely helpless soul wandering thru life w/o hope, goal, love, aim, etc...

people think u're cool if u dun talk that much or if u dun complain...
i'd betta stay cool instead of bein' pain-in-the-ass...

But for ya'll information....
I am sad, hurt, unhappy and doin' NOT okay~

okay... juz one of those "i-cant-sleep-i-cant-eat-i-cant-stop-thinking-abt-my-fucked-up-life" pic!

hello :)

i've been a lil' happy these dayz for no reason :) i guess God is payin' supa attention to me this week... i smile for no reason, laugh genuinely n sleep well, too... i even feel happy after i took fish previous day.... i often feel shitty after i take fish.... n i think people ard me r also feelin' happy, too :) for instance, meelay who hardly smiles before is now luks so happy n content these dayz... most probably becoz she found the love for her life (u go, girl :D )
newayz, i juz wanna say i feel happy :) n im so happy to see people ard me bein' in love...

- life is perfect -

I woke up today... I smell sumthin'.... Hmmmmm....
The smell of Pa Dauk... N as soon as my eyes r opened, I heard the whistle sounds and music blaring from distance....
My mom says, "Jan Jan, Yu Wai is here!", so I tried my best to get out of bed...
When I exit my room, Yu Wai said "Biatch, change ur clothes. May Kyi Noo n MawC r on the way"... and I said "okay... OKAYYYY"
N the phone rang. It was Ma Michelle. She said, "Jan, where the hell hav u been..? Come quick b4 the traffic starts jammin'.."
I washed my face brushed my teeth n changed as quick as possible.
I heard Ma Gyi shoutin' in the back... "IF U GUYZ GONNA DRINK LIKE DOGS, AT LEAST EAT SUMTHIN' B4 U GO!!!!"
Now that Yu Wai, May Kyi n MawC r in da house, we'r ready to get goin'...
I kissed my mom, ignored ma gyi's suggestion, put the $$$ mom gave me in a plastic bag..., asked Yu Wai to hide my ciggies in anotha plstic bag.., wore my jean skirt..,my fav t-shirt n hoodie, put on a cap n head to the car....
B4 we all went out, Mom was holdin' a plate... innit was a butter block.... she said, "Okay, guyz... if u'r not gonna eat anythin', at least eat this butter. It will line ur inner side of intestine n u won't get that drunk". Everyone was eatin' her butter scoop against their wills.... :D
We drove from Yankin to Sayar San road... saw some people we know.. waved @ them.. n drived on.... We used Inya Myaing Road... saw a few people gettin' splashed by others....
We drove on.... WOW... finally, we reached our MAnn Dat... in old University Road.... Ma Michelle was waving @ us... Phyu Hnin Cho, Phyoe, Ma Pauk Si, Ma Zar, Tar Tee... the whole gang was thur, waitin' for us.... I waved @ them bak... got out of the car... me, Yu Wai n May Kyi were holdin' each others' hands.. walkin' towards the Mann Dat.. while MAwC was parkin' the car.... N then...... *BAM*
My alarm went off.... OH Sh!T..! I'm in my bed... wakin' up from my sweetest dream.... :(
Sh!t, piss... fu*kkkkkkkk.... I gotta got to workkkkkk... n it's saturdayyyyy...
I hate it when I hav to work on weekendssss :((((
Haiz... newayz, gotta brush my teeth n drink coffee... to open my much closed eyez....

Who I am~

I'm a true Aries... I was born on 22nd of March, so if u call me Piscarian, it would b more appropriate.. as I was born between Pisces n Aries... I think too much sometimes, but I let go n go wit the flow from time to time...Most people think I'm so aloof and reserved, but few of them know that I can be as talkative as those side part actresses from Burmese movies :P I am naive and stupid sometimes, but I am the master when it comes to bad things... I am truly a bad influence for people ard me... But I am nice @ heart... The bad thing abt me is that I do wut I want and alwayz regret 'em afterwards... I try to be good all the time, but as ya'll no, no one can be perfect... I can love this person so much today,but I can't promise I'll love him/her the next day.. Yea, thatz called JanJan :) I am hated by most people (for no reason at all)... but, loved by a few who truly really know me... I hate bein' alone or broke... N I definitely hate heights... I love my brotha a lot (more than he loves me) and I always will... I wanted to have a perfect family wit mom n dad since I was very young and alwayz hope that they can reunite... but as time goes by, I stopped hoping and praying... n begin to lose faith in happy families... I love and understand my mom a lot but I neva admit it and neva will I... People alwayz say bad things abt my mom and I alwayz hav to cry becoz of their accusations, but in the end I alwayz believe in my mom... Coz she's my HERO despite all those things I hate abt her... After all, she's stronger than most of the men I've ever seen... I love laughing... In fact I laughed until I peed in my pants for no particular reasons.. I love my frenz a lot... even tho few of them back stab me from time to time... I alwayz hav a thing for ugly guyz.. Yea, if u dun believe, u can check out my ex-boyfrenz :D I love Josh Hartnett as my own bf :P If anyone knows me and if he/she tries to write abt me, my biography would definitely be longer than those chinese martial arts novels... I hav encountered a lot of movie-like experiences and stories related to my family (thanx to my father n his father) After all, Life ain't a fairytale and it definitely is stranger than fiction... N I thank God for teaching me wut life is all abt each day....