Dear God,

I'm trying my best to stay good :)
I'm quitting fish, liquor and decided to read bible n pray every night :)
Yes, I no.. I do all this thing coz I want sumthing from u :P
But I'm doing all this because I love u also :)
Father, can I hav the job that I want..? Or at least pull me out from this current job..? Please...?
I no I've got no future in this industry and the people here are so mean :( esp the owners..
Please dun let me rot in here, God :(

Laz but not least.... Laz nite, when I was talking to Thanboo, he asked me to quit smoking....
He promised me he will, too... So we made a pack that we'll quit 'em ciggies for good :)
N we will quit it U Tun Min (our beloved grandfather) 's style... COLD TURKEY!

So well... yea, juz like that I gave away my ciggie box, which I bought only recently, to my house mate.... Bye bye, ciggies :(

I made that promise not because I wanna quit smoking... I was telling my house mates the other day about how I love smoking.... N now, yea... I have to quit, coz my brother is suffering from serious tuberculosis disease... n he still smokes... n he said if I quit, he'll quit, too...

Things we do for love, huh..?? N I wanna make mom happy... If Thanboo quit smoking, she'll be happy... so... yeaaa... I have to sacrifice myself :(

OMG.. I juz had lunch n I'm yearning for 'em ciggies n u have no idea how itz killing meeee...
EEeeeeee.. Never mind... I'll be okay...

See..? I'm trying my best each day to be good... All I need is the strength from u to fight all those bad bad things :) Then I'll be good as new *wink*

Well, thank you, God... for letting me survive in this crazy mean world... I love u... N I promise I'm trying.....

One love,
Janskee


P.S I miz a pho... Please, let him no~

i guess GOD is coming...

NARGIS in burma
EARTHQUAKE in china

yea, HE's really coming.... n i'm not sure whether i'm ready....

Life goes on~

Okie, I wanna blog so bad...n n I'm still @ work...
So, I'll juz write down everythin' randomly..kk..?
Heee... Well, 1st thing 1st.... I GOT A NEW TATTOO...
yayyyyyyyyyyyy....
Itz so cool, man... Trust me.. I juz wanna get more
ink done on me.... The feeling is indescribable...
First, I thot it'll be so painful.... But once the needle
starts goin' in... Awwwnnnn, mannn.. that feelin' was
like heaven... I had my 1st tattoo when I was ard 16
and I completely forgot the feelin' n got a lil' (actually,
more than a lil') scared b4 the 2nd one... well, i've done it..
n i luv it, n no regrets yet.. lol.. so itz still cool :P
Actually I hate the buzzin' sound of the tattoo machine..
so I repeatedly listen to loud music, like System Of
A Down(Needles), Pitbull(Toma), etc.... But I got stuck wit
J.me's song (kae thar kae).. lol.. ironic, huh..?? So like wut he said....
kae thar kae.. min ga yu ma site net :P

Okay, anotha thing is the storm in Burma... Man, that thing was
fucked up... :( All of us from SG were worried sick...
But luckily, I got contact wit mom the other day and heard all r
well n fine... But I'm so scared of the aftermath... No electricity n
no waterrrr...??? WTF..? U no..? It'll be so bad.... All the diseases
will come... no one to help... The Government will juz watch our
ppl die, shakin' their legs... Shit junta... If I were a GOD, I'd fu*k 'em all...
Maybe GOD is punishing 'em now.... But I hate it when my ppl has
to suffer 1st :( But, everythin' happens for a reason, rite..?
So thur muz be sumthin' behind this disaster... Haiz...
Well.. we can juz pray n hope for a miracle.... but I no God won't leave
his children alone... Wish u'll get well very soon, Burma!

I managed to chat with Thanboo(my elder bro) the other day...
N surprise surprise...! HE ADMITS HE WANNA GET MARRIED!!!!
Wut the fuck, rite? I mean he's a man.. n he can screw ard wit any
chicks he likes... But, no... He said his idea of heaven is to get a wife,
settle down, get a regular income, give birth to 3 or 4 kids...
N live happily ever after wit his big family.... (Well, if only our father has
had that kinda dream.... tsk tsk tsk...) It was so funny when he
told me then... but come to think of it.. it wasn't a surprise...
since ThanBoo is the softer one between us two... He always
wanted to hav a Dad n stuffs... (Poor him) Ohh.. dun get me wrong....
I wanted to have a Dad & Mom like a regular family, too....
But if only I'm in the daughter posision...
Well, so yea... he said he's gonna marry soon... Well, good luck,
Brotha Boo... n make me proud... since I won't get married
any time soon.... Eewww... scares me even when I think abt it... :/
And he asked me.... "Wuz ur idea of Heaven, Fatty...?" then I replied,
"My idea of Heaven..? To pack a bag... Travel ard the world.... Get all
the kinky sex wit the hotties..... oh!.. n n help people ard the world...
U no..? Like Angelina Jolie..?? All those social works... But wit a less
sexy body and minus Brad Pitt ofcoz..." Then he laughed...
He said "Aii aii... I can dig that... ha.. ha... ha... U'r weird"
Well, now ya'll know wut our ideas of Heaven... Ironic, huh..?
Well.. after that I can't even continue chatting wit him since he dun
reply my chat nemore.... Maybe coz his girlfriend came online n
got his attention, or maybe he was secretly praying that I'd be
a normal girl soon.... :D Well, wuteva the fuck ever... I surely miz my bro
that night n our stupid long conversations back home in Burma...
Yea, we can't live without each other back then... We were always talking....
especially when we're having lunch or dinner....
Awwwnnn... those were the dayz, man... I miz my brotha :(

Okie, post is gettin' long n boringgggg... So, I'll stop here...
Last but not least.... "Lord, please save Burma... Amen"

To Nippon wit LOVE~

Yo!
Ko Nippon,

How hav u been, man..??
LTNS.... n thatz a long ass time, man...
Dunno where u r rite now, but I miz u a lil' each day....
So hav u met A Dee..?? heee...
U guyz were so young and u guyz let go of ur lives so easily, man....
Guess wut..?? I stopped drinking :)
U shld be proud, man.... Now I can get drunk wit 2 bottles of Bacardi Breezer.. lol
Yup, i shld be ashamed... XD
I miz all those stoopid things I done wit chu, man....
N hey.... I still got ur pic in my wallet :))
But I must admit... I rarely take it out n see it XP
Well, man... So much has changed lately....
U no May Kyi got married...??? Yea, man.... She finally did it XD
As for me... I'm still goin' crazy alone w/o u, man....
No bf yet.... N still searchin' 4 my soul mate... haahahha (yea, as usual)
I miz u, man n I no u do for sure, too....
Aii... stay tight n be good, mate..... I'll see u someday (but not so soon I hope XD )
Kk... take care n watch over me.... After all... u'r all that I've got n I'm all that u've got....
-BEST FRIENDS 4EVA-
one love,
Fatty Ma XD